Mountain Refuge
(Book three of Einar’s Saga)
Book One Here
Book Two Here
He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress;
My God, in Him I will trust."
-- Psalm 91:1-2
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The banner of the chieftain,
Far, far below us waves;
The war-horses of the spearman
Cannot reach our lofty caves.
Thy dark clouds wrap the threshold
Of freedom's last abode.
For the strength of the hills we bless thee,
Our God, our fathers' God.
(from, Hymn of the Vaudois Mountaineers)
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(Book three of Einar’s Saga)
Book One Here
Book Two Here
He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress;
My God, in Him I will trust."
-- Psalm 91:1-2
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The banner of the chieftain,
Far, far below us waves;
The war-horses of the spearman
Cannot reach our lofty caves.
Thy dark clouds wrap the threshold
Of freedom's last abode.
For the strength of the hills we bless thee,
Our God, our fathers' God.
(from, Hymn of the Vaudois Mountaineers)
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He stood, silent, unmoving, barely appearing to breathe as the snow filtered down through the dense network of spruce boughs above him and settled on the rich brown and gold fur of his hat, wolverine, front legs of the pelt tied behind his head, thick fur covering his neck and upper shoulders, his arm drawn back, ready to throw a dart with his atlatl as soon as the creature stepped out in the open, bear hide mitten on his left hand, its mate tucked into the nearly empty pack he wore. It was with obvious effort that the man held his arm up and in the proper position, clothing that hardly appeared adequate for the cold hanging loosely on a frame some forty or fifty pounds too light for its build and stature, face hollow, shadowed, lined from long days of care and struggle and striving at the very limits of strength, but he was doing it, and that, in itself, was a tremendous accomplishment, considering the events of the past weeks. The man knew it, eyes sharp and bright and full of a joyful, barely contained energy at his new-found mobility and at the opportunity that awaited him just on beyond those last few aspens before the clearing began. There. The doe, graceful, wary, sensing something, perhaps, but unable to quite quantify it, left the trees on the far side of the little meadow--over half of its area covered in boggy, cattail-inhabited swamp during the summer months--and began pawing at the snowy ground, hungry, looking for a taste of last season’s dried grass before heading down to lower country, as she should have done earlier, would have done, had not the intensity of the storm caught her off guard and left her curled up beneath the spruces to await the lessening of its fury. The dart took her just behind the shoulder, forceful at that close range, the doe jumping, taking three hesitating steps and falling, the blood on the snow beneath her frothy, pink, steaming, and she was no longer at risk of becoming one of the first casualties of the cold and the rapidly deepening snow, and neither was he. The man let his breath out in a long sigh, white and billowing in the chill air, shivering slightly, relieved at the opportunity to relax his focus just a bit, and breathe.
Reaching back and stashing the atlatl and remaining darts in his pack, he took the spear that had been stuck in the snow beside him and, leaning on it slightly for balance he began moving at something approaching a normal walk in speed and cadence, though decidedly different, too, as the knee of his right leg--the broken one--rested on a platform carved and burnt out of a split section of aspen log, well padded with soft, springy usnea lichen and bound at a right angle with bear sinew to a sturdy, hip-high branch that acted in place of his leg, allowing him to walk fairly normally while keeping the pressure off of his injured and casted lower leg. Having bound the upright branch to his upper leg just above the knee and again just below the hip, the device moved with him, allowing him to take confident, if stiff-legged steps through the snow, having fitted the “foot” of the device with an improvised snowshoe of willow branches and bearskin rawhide, the rawhide strips protected from the snow’s moisture with a good thick coating of spruce pitch. The “wooden leg” was, though slightly heavy and a bit cumbersome at first, a huge improvement over the improvised crutches that he had been using to get around since breaking his lower leg. The crutches, while they had allowed him to move, after a fashion, had begun hurting his under arms terribly after a while, especially on the left side where he was still trying to recover from the old shoulder injury, hands going numb in the cold after a few minutes of gripping them, and they had also prevented him, of course, from having the use of his hands while walking. Which while a real disadvantage in daily life down in the valley, can be no less than life-threatening, in the life he was living. Skirting around the clearing he went to the deer, keeping to the trees, placing his feet carefully so as not to leave sign in the more open areas.
Halfway through cleaning the deer, the man glanced up sharply at the subtle sound of boots crunching through the snow up on the slope above him, wary, getting to his feet, dart fitted in the atlatl, face taut and strained, only to relax in a big grin the next moment when he caught sight of the young woman, bearskin coat and knit cap protecting her from the cold, hurrying down through the trees towards him. The grin faded a bit when he saw the look of distress and concern on her face, and he stood staring at the deer, waiting to see just how much trouble he might be in.
“Einar! I got back to the den and you were gone. Good thing that snowshoe contraption of yours leaves really distinctive tracks! What…”
“It was time, Liz. Had to start getting out again, seeing what I could do--felt like I was gonna turn into some sort of a vegetable just sitting there in the den all the time. A root vegetable, a beet or potato and grow roots and never move again--but I figured you might have something to say about it…so, I just took off while you were out checking the snares. Meant to be back before you got done, but I started tracking this doe. Don’t know what she was still doing up here, with all this snow, but we can use the meat. And the hide. Can really use the hide.” He shivered again, some of the energy and excitement that had come with exercising his newly acquired mobility and continued as he tracked and took the doe fading, reality returning in full force to leave him leaning a bit more heavily on the spear as he stood there, weak and shaky and beginning to feel the cold rather acutely. Liz offered him the bearskin, small, from a yearling, folded with a slit cut in the top for a head hole and tied around her waist with some parachute cord, warm against the bitter wind that swept thin and piercing down from the nearby peaks, but he refused.
“Nah, still too heavy for me. Leg’s holding up pretty good, only fallen a couple times, but I doubt I could carry much of this deer up the hill, if I was weighed down like that with the coat. Might have worked on the downhill, but not up. I’m alright.”
“Well, I would have left the coat for you, if you’d have told me you were coming down here…” She said it lightly, playfully, almost, knowing very well that Einar Asmundson, fiercely independent mountain wanderer, most wanted man in America and perhaps one of the most absurdly, unrelentingly stubborn and pigheaded, too, was certainly not in the habit of telling anyone where he was going or when, and could not be expected to adopt the habit simply because she was there. She shook her head, smiled at him--he’d been sleeping when she left that morning to check the snares for rabbits, tucking the bearskin sleeping robe in around him and leaving some stew to stay warm in the coals of the fire, and she had hoped to find him the same way, when she returned--and crouched down to help finish skinning out the deer. They worked together in silence for a time, Einar planning how he was to use the deer hide--they really were in desperate need of more clothing for the winter, and would soon be facing the need to replace badly worn and disintegrating boots, as well--and Liz watching him, marveling that he had been able to get up and go like that after a week spent lying seriously ill and feverish in the den, barely conscious much of the time, having pushed himself beyond the limits of even his substantial endurance in the climb up to the canyon rim, where he had set off an avalanche to halt the federal search that had been about to discover her hiding place in a rock crevice. It had been quite a journey, but that was all past, now. He was awake, walking, beginning to put on a bit of weight, even, though he did not look it, yet, but that would come. Hoisting one of the deer quarters onto his shoulder Einar started up the slope, Liz beside him, her pack loaded and the other quarter over her shoulder.
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The week following their return to the bear cave had been a difficult one for Einar and Liz, starting with the morning after their feast upon returning to the den--their marriage feast, as they would later come to recall it, as it was on that day, standing snow-covered and half frozen in the storm just outside the den, that Einar had asked Liz to stay with him, as his wife, and she had joyfully agreed. After that it seemed that, finally having the opportunity to rest a bit, and knowing it, Einar’s body began shutting down entirely without his consent, demanding he get that rest, leaving him with a great heaviness, a tremendous weakness that gave him little choice but to lie there wrapped in the bear hide as Liz prepared a breakfast that he seemed unable to wake up quite thoroughly enough to eat. He fought it, struggling to rise when the faint, filtering glow of daylight came seeping into the den and he first heard Liz stirring about, adding wood to the fire and preparing their breakfast of boiled bear meat and dried chokecherries, but to his great consternation, he could hardly seem to lift his head. The fever came, then, and Einar lay sweating and shaking, only half aware of his surroundings, staring with bleary eyes at Liz and at the firelight that seemed to flicker and splash weirdly, crazily, on the walls of the den, knowing that he needed to get up and check on things outside, make sure that the storm was still going furiously enough for the fire Liz kept stoking to be a safe thing, wanting, if he was not able to check, himself, to let Liz know that it needed to be done, but he couldn’t seem to find the words to tell her. She tried to give him some breakfast, managed to rouse him just enough to take a much-needed sip or two of water before he lapsed back into a state that was somewhere between stupor and sleep, Liz finally deciding to let him be, let him rest, give his body a bit of time to start rebuilding itself after the tremendous effort he had put it through over the past days. They were beginning to run low on firewood, though, and, not liking that she must take the bearskin door-covering to wear as a coat, but seeing little choice, she bundled Einar up in the larger bear hide--she was still somewhat amazed that he had been able to drag that heavy hide up to the den is his condition, let alone kill the creature in the first place and get it skinned, carved up and the meat hung from trees within easy reach of the den--and piled around him great armfuls of the grass and duff padding that the bear had collected in the den, dry, insulating, and she hoped it would all be enough to keep him reasonably warm while she was gone. Outside the snow was falling rather heavily, the storm still in full swing, and she hurried to break off a load of dry sticks and carry them back to the den, glancing in at Einar before heading out again and seeing that he appeared not to have moved. Which he had not, but certainly not for lack of trying.
Dimly aware of Liz’s departure and wanting desperately to be of some use while she was away, Einar again fought to get himself moving, finally managed to raise himself on his arms and crawl over to the fire, adding a few sticks and lying there on his side watching as the flames began consuming them. He wasn’t especially cold, thought he ought to be, as Liz had taken down the door to use the hide as a coat, and wondered if he might be a bit feverish. Didn’t have to wonder for long, though, as he was soon sweating again and feeling as though the little fire was stifling him, the close, formerly cozy world of the den interior swirling and dancing crazily around him when he tried to move, closing in, threatening to crush him, and he struggled out of his shirt, grabbing a handful of snow from just outside the entrance and eating it, the coldness in his throat a welcome relief. OK. Better. Now, what’s wrong with you? Got a warm shelter, food to eat, and… The thought trailed off and he couldn’t seem to pick it up again, sat staring around at the flickering firelight on the den walls for a while, still feeling that he must do something productive, must make use of the time while Liz was away, finally getting his slow, foggy brain to cooperate in deciding that finding and collecting the flat rock slabs necessary to begin building the stove would be an excellent start.
A number of appropriate rocks were visible just outside the den entrance, protected from the deepest of the snow and, he hoped, from freezing to each other and to the ground--by the little ledge of overhanging rock, and he dragged himself over and stuck his head out into the storm, glad to find that the rocks had been drifted over with only a light covering of snow. Choosing a few, he began bringing them into the den, angry at himself when he found that he could lift only one of them at a time, and that only with great difficulty, but glad to see the pile of carefully chosen slabs growing, just inside the den. Great! I’ll have this stove done, or well under way, anyhow, before Liz gets back, and we can be cooking on the stove tonight. It should really cut down on the amount of wood we need for cooking, and the rocks’ll hold the heat, too, help keep the place warm. Not that he was especially focused on keeping the place warm, at the moment, as he was still burning up, the ground seeming to rise up with increasing frequency to contact his head and leave him lying there sick and dizzy for a minute or two until some of the vertigo passed, upon which he would struggle again to his elbows and go after another rock or two. Einar knew he needed water, found some once over by the fire in the small pot and drank it, expected that Liz would have filled a water bottle or two that morning, but could not find them, so ate the occasional lump of snow when his throat became too dry, knowing it was not enough but somehow not quite able to translate that knowledge into the action that would have been necessary to scoop up some additional snow in the pot and set it to melt. He did manage to drag himself over to the entrance, though, in one last and final hunt for another few flat rocks with which to construct the stove.
Liz descended a good ways down the slope below the den in her search for firewood, as she did not want to simply collect all the close, convenient stuff first, knowing that if anything happened to her before Einar had recovered some and was able to get around better, they would both be most appreciative of a ready supply of nearby firewood. Following the ridge down a good distance, intrigued by the occasional glimpses she was catching through the swirling snow of what appeared to be a flatter, more open area down below, Liz discovered a small, aspen and spruce-encircled meadow, replete with the brown, snow-weighted leaves of cattail, hundreds of the brown fuzzy heads still standing on their stalks. Exploring the area, she saw that the meadow--the section that held the cattails, at least--was a natural collecting place for snowmelt water and also for the water of a small creek that trickled, sluggish, near frozen, down from the ridge that held the den, forming a boggy area that was apparently ideal for the growth of cattails.
Cutting off a number of the fuzzy cattail heads, she shook the dry snow from them and stowed them in her pack, filling it, after that loading down one of the large trash bags she carried, thinking that the heads could be used to make an insulating and probably fairly comfortable mattress on the sleeping platform Einar had created, either by stripping off the fuzz and stuffing it into something--not that we really have anything to stuff it into, right now--or by simply leaving the fuzz on the heads, and lining up row after row of them until they covered the platform, laying the bear hide over top. Excited at the prospect of being able to contribute something to the comfort and warmth of the den, she spent a good while collecting the cattail heads, stopping when the bag began growing heavy and full enough that to add many more of the brown, fuzzy heads would have meant it dragging on the ground as she climbed, which would have resulted in tearing the bag to shreds, she knew, on protruding branches and rocks. Gathering firewood as she climbed back up towards the den, Liz found a small diameter dead aspen not far below the little levelish area outside the den, leaning, rootless, but not lying in the snow, and paused to kick it loose so that it could be dragged along. She was not entirely certain how they might go about breaking it up into useful lengths, but supposed if nothing else it could be stuck in through the den entrance and into the fire--at least until Einar was able to build that stove--and burned that way. Unless Einar had a better idea, which she suspected he might.
She found Einar face down in the snow when she returned, shirtless, lying where he had fallen when his badly overestimated supply of energy had finally run out for good, his front half out in the snow, legs still inside, and she hastily dropped her burden of cattails and firewood, dragging him back into the relative warmth of the den and building up the fire, talking him into drinking a mixture of leftover bear broth and honey as she worked to thaw him out again. Einar revived fairly quickly--he had not, it seemed, been out there too long, as his temperature seemed to return to something like normal in a fairly timely manner, though he never did quite wake up all the way or manage to form a coherent sentence longer than two or three words as he tried to explain to her what he had been doing out there, gesturing vaguely in the direction of the rock pile. Other than a bit of frost nip on his nose and, of all places, on his ribs where they had been pressed into the snow, his fingers seemed to have got the worst of it, and Liz, as she thawed them in a pot of tepid water and smeared them with a mixture of bear fat and hound’s tongue leaves, knew that she must get some mittens made, and soon.
Well, I should have plenty of time for making mittens, if I can figure out how, because it looks like I’d better not be leaving him alone for too long at a time, at least until this fever goes down and he stops trying to wander all over the place. She wished she had something to give him to help him sleep, help him relax and be willing to lie there and rest, at least, some chamomile, even, but she had nothing, and knew he would likely have a strong objection to her giving it to him, if she had. He can object, then, but I have to try something, because I’ve got to be able to leave the den without wondering every time whether I’ll come back to find him frozen solid out in a snowdrift, or something. The only thing she could think of was yarrow, of which they had dried a good bit during their time back at the crevice before that first snow had come, and she pulled out the rawhide bag in which the leaves, dried, brown and almost springy in texture because of their numerous fine fernlike fronds, were stored, stirring a good sized pinch into some heating water. She did not want to deplete their supply too much, as the leaves were so useful as a coagulation aid for wounds, which use, if required, would be much more pressing than the current one, but as they had managed to collect and dry a wad of leaves approximately the size of a softball, she doubted the tablespoon she was taking would be a problem. The yarrow, she knew, ought to help bring down his fever if nothing else, and she remembered Susan telling her that it tended to have a mild sedative effect on many people, too, so there was at least some hope that it might help him relax…if she could get him to drink it. Which she knew was doubtful. Einar had returned to a more wakeful state while Liz worked on the tea, taking good-sized bear bone fragment that had been left over from his construction of the chimney-digging tool and beginning to work it with his knife and a rough chunk of granite with the thought that it ought to make a fine atlatl dart point, but ending up sitting there in a daze after a minute or two of such work, staring into the fire, the mere act of remaining sitting demanding all of the energy and focus he could summon. She brought him the tea, put a hand on his arm and offered it to him, holding it up for him to drink. He looked up at her, eyes distant, unfocused.
“Sorry Liz. Stove…meant to finish it but the rocks…uh…started getting awful heavy. Didn’t mean to go to sleep out in the snow out there, either. Feeling kinda weird right now, I guess.”
“You’ve got a fever, and you really need to rest. Here. Drink this.”
“What…?”
“Yarrow. It’ll help bring the fever down.”
He grunted, held his hand up in front of his face to ward off the pot she was urging him to drink from. “Fever’ll be OK. I’m just…worn out. Nothing really…wrong with me. Don’t like to drink yarrow. Tried it once. Makes me...real sleepy, weird.”
“Einar, you’re already pretty weird, and you need to sleep. This isn’t going to hurt you. Now, please…”
But he would not, turned to face the wall, resting his head on it, suddenly dizzy and unsure where the floor was, or what his relationship to it might be, and not wishing to fall over on his face, right there in front of Liz. She shook her head, tried again to persuade him to take the tea, but he told her he couldn’t, said she had better just go ahead and drink it, herself. He was getting cold, shaking, and she tired to convince him to turn around, return to the bear hide where he could be warm, and he glanced over his shoulder at her, somewhat suspiciously.
“Can I be sure you’re not gonna hold me down and pour that stuff down my throat, if I do that?”
She smiled, shook her head, well, I’d sure like to, you stubborn old mule, because I think this stuff would do you some good, but… “No, Einar. I wouldn’t do that to you. But I do wish you’d change your mind. Now, come on and get wrapped up in this bear hide before you start freezing again.”
“OK. Sorry about the tea, but I can’t. I’ll explain it sometime… not right now though. You’re right. Got to sleep…”
Which he did, Liz adding some sticks to the fire and sitting by it, tending it, watching him as he tossed and fretted in his sleep--it appeared that even in sleep, he was struggling with himself, attempting to force his exhausted body to cooperate so he could get up and do something--sipping the yarrow tea herself and knowing that the next few days were likely to be rather long, difficult ones for both of them, but immensely relieved that they were together again, had food to eat and a dry, wind-free place to shelter in as the storm raged on outside.