its amazing how we can covince ourselves its ok to start again.
well its been ages since i had any,
i'm a different person now,
things have changed,
i wont be the same,
i'm not that young and stupid.
well guess what.......
your the same person.
things havent changes.
you will be the same.
and well, yes you are that stupid. we all are for even thinking that way in the first place
and we have all had those thoughts even if we havent acted on them.
every so often i have a fleeting thought, myXX birthday is coming up.... my sobriety date is coming up.... maybe just one drink... maybe just one bong load.... and then i remember things like sleeping under an over pass,going to jail, being beaten to within inchs of my life during a bad deal, i remember over dosing, i remember standing on the ledge of a bridge daring myself to make it all stop, i remember my wifes love for me and how she never knew me when i was under the influence, i remember my kids and how they make me feel everytime i see their little faces. then i think how all the bad things would be back again, and the good things would be gone.
all that takes place in the blink of an eye and i go back to what i was doing. infact i process some form of this thought every single day.its what reminds me who and what i am and that i need to maintain sobriety if i want to stay alive and happy.
well its been ages since i had any,
i'm a different person now,
things have changed,
i wont be the same,
i'm not that young and stupid.
well guess what.......
your the same person.
things havent changes.
you will be the same.
and well, yes you are that stupid. we all are for even thinking that way in the first place
and we have all had those thoughts even if we havent acted on them.
every so often i have a fleeting thought, myXX birthday is coming up.... my sobriety date is coming up.... maybe just one drink... maybe just one bong load.... and then i remember things like sleeping under an over pass,going to jail, being beaten to within inchs of my life during a bad deal, i remember over dosing, i remember standing on the ledge of a bridge daring myself to make it all stop, i remember my wifes love for me and how she never knew me when i was under the influence, i remember my kids and how they make me feel everytime i see their little faces. then i think how all the bad things would be back again, and the good things would be gone.
all that takes place in the blink of an eye and i go back to what i was doing. infact i process some form of this thought every single day.its what reminds me who and what i am and that i need to maintain sobriety if i want to stay alive and happy.