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hello, i am an addict

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i'm starting this thread for all of us addicts here on the board. be it drugs, alcohol, nicotine(all forms). you name it and you can find support here. i'm always willing to lend a hand, or an ear.

let me start out by telling you alittle about myself. for those of you who havent heard my story. my name is vincent and I AM AN ADDICT. i quit using drugs in 95, alcohol in 99, and i quit smoking just 3 months ago. healing is an on going process that never ends. i wake up each day and i look at my family and i think, without sobriety i would have none of this. without my health i will be unable to keep any of this. they are my rock, and i am thankful every minute of everyday for them.

i'm a meth junkie, a drug addict, an alcoholic, a smoker, and a dipper. i have been involved with the N/A program since febuary 3rd 1999. i've attended A/A groups when i couldnt find an N/A meeting. we addicts need to stick together. its says right in the slogan."MY GRATITUDE SPEAKS, WHEN I CARE AND WHEN I SHARE WITH OTHERS." i am here to lend support to anyperson who wants to clean up any or all parts of their life. no judgement. this board is already anonomous so that is not a concern.

please feel free to join me here anytime you want support, or you want to support others. if you have something you want to get off your chest, or you want to ask a question.this thread is for addicts, but family members of addicts are welcome, as are friens of addicts. our addiction affects all around us, and we are lucky to have anyone in our lives to care enough that they would seek out information about our problem.

while the "rooms of bill' do say you need to find "god", they dont preach religion. i find this very important. they also use the term "higher power" very often. this is a term i like. i wont ask you not to speak of religion, but i will ask you not to preach because i dont want to turn this into a religious issue. one of the most important things i learned in the rooms was this. "RELIGION IS FOR THOSE AFRAID OF HELL, SPIRITUALITY IS FOR THOSE WHO HAVE LIVED THROUGH IT." we as addicts, be it alcohol, cigarettes, or drugs have lived through some form of hell.

for many people sobriety is a major concern in everyday life, and in a post SHTF world. so this is a very important and very personal issue to many.

in closing of this invitation for you to join me i ask this. no flaming, no trolls, and no disrespect. if you have an issue with any of these PM me and i will be happy to discuss it with you.

take it easy, and remember to take it one day at a time.
thanx-vincent
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its amazing how we can covince ourselves its ok to start again.

well its been ages since i had any,
i'm a different person now,
things have changed,
i wont be the same,
i'm not that young and stupid.

well guess what.......
your the same person.
things havent changes.
you will be the same.
and well, yes you are that stupid. we all are for even thinking that way in the first place
and we have all had those thoughts even if we havent acted on them.

every so often i have a fleeting thought, myXX birthday is coming up.... my sobriety date is coming up.... maybe just one drink... maybe just one bong load.... and then i remember things like sleeping under an over pass,going to jail, being beaten to within inchs of my life during a bad deal, i remember over dosing, i remember standing on the ledge of a bridge daring myself to make it all stop, i remember my wifes love for me and how she never knew me when i was under the influence, i remember my kids and how they make me feel everytime i see their little faces. then i think how all the bad things would be back again, and the good things would be gone.

all that takes place in the blink of an eye and i go back to what i was doing. infact i process some form of this thought every single day.its what reminds me who and what i am and that i need to maintain sobriety if i want to stay alive and happy.
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does being addicted to beautiful women count?


By the way great job thats pretty big accomplishment
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Congrats to all of you that have made these accomplishments! I know it's a long hard road. Kudos to you for making it through.
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does being addicted to beautiful women count?


By the way great job thats pretty big accomplishment

I know you were kind of joking but there is a sex alcoholics anonymous group.
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ive never heard of a sex addict that was too choosy. i'm expecting to hear the govenator to come out like tiger woods and claim to be a sex addict. has anyone seen the maid he impregnated? that would be proof right there. (this is me being facisious, please feel free to laugh)
ive never heard of a sex addict that was too choosy. i'm expecting to hear the govenator to come out like tiger woods and claim to be a sex addict. has anyone seen the maid he impregnated? that would be proof right there. (this is me being facisious, please feel free to laugh)
Since you mentioned it, I had to google her...OK, now Im not the greatest looking guy and Im far from wealthy but whats with these powerful dudes Arnold, Clinton, almost any politician and the fuglies?
beer goggles? who knows we all have our bad days. maybe it was her uniform that drove him nuts?
I know you were kind of joking but there is a sex alcoholics anonymous group.
lol if only I got laid enough to fall into that catagory lol:eek:

that being said how does that work id imagine it couldnt be a coed group or thed be hooking up out the gate :D:
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See, now that's an addiction. People are addicted to cheating on their spouses/sig-other. Even if the person is not that attractive they get off on the cheating, that is their high. Make sense?
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lol if only I got laid enough to fall into that catagory lol:eek:

that being said how does that work id imagine it couldnt be a coed group or thed be hooking up out the gate :D:
I don't know either but I always gave the guy who said it a look like, are you serious but if they think they have a problem, who am I to argue. I've got my own demons to wrestle. And for women who are sex addicts they normally wont say that in a co-ed meeting because every guy would be hitting on them, they might say it in an all women's group, that would be safer.
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I don't know either but I always gave the guy who said it a look like, are you serious but if they think they have a problem, who am I to argue. I've got my own demons to wrestle. And for women who are sex addicts they normally wont say that in a co-ed meeting because every guy would be hitting on them, they might say it in an all women's group, that would be safer.
lol we all have our demons mine come visit in my dreams
lol we all have our demons mine come visit in my dreams
Please tell me that those demons don't look like Arnold's maid :eek:
Please tell me that those demons don't look like Arnold's maid :eek:
no there just people from the past :(
Since you mentioned it, I had to google her...OK, now Im not the greatest looking guy and Im far from wealthy but whats with these powerful dudes Arnold, Clinton, almost any politician and the fuglies?
I thought I saw some pictures of her from when the stuff happened, 10 years ago, and she was not too shabby back then. I guess maybe knowing you have the germinator's love child (governor/terminator=germinator?) you can let yourself go?
got home last night to find the upright freezer had kicked the bucket. 800-1000 dollars in food thawing out! low and behold we found a repair man to comeout and for the small sum of 275 dollars its fixed. now i get to figure out which bill not to pay. the mortgage, or the truck payment. it was enough stress in the house last night for the wife to say she needed a drink, and that doesnt happen very often because she senstive to drinking in front of me very often. surprizingly enough i didnt even have s twinge of desire. not even for a smoke. its been nearly 4 months and i guess i've reached that point finally where i dont imediatly think about them when i get stressed. i feel pretty good about that.
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Please tell me that those demons don't look like Arnold's maid :eek:


I've done some things that I'm not exactly proud of...but WTH was Arnold thinking?!?!
HOLIDAY WEEKEND

first let me start bay saying i hope you all have a great holiday weekend. many a BBQ, picnic, and pool party is planned. have fun, be safe, and keep in mind who you are. these are the type of activities when lots of us will let down our guard and think its ok to "just have one". dont let others push you into it, dont let your ego get in your way. be strong, and have a support person on speed dial. if your friends are drinking(or whatever) offer to be the DD.

you all have fun out there, i'll be right here at work saturday and monday mumbling slightly unpleasent things about being trapped inside. :upsidedown:
HOLIDAY WEEKEND

first let me start bay saying i hope you all have a great holiday weekend. many a BBQ, picnic, and pool party is planned. have fun, be safe, and keep in mind who you are. these are the type of activities when lots of us will let down our guard and think its ok to "just have one". dont let others push you into it, dont let your ego get in your way. be strong, and have a support person on speed dial. if your friends are drinking(or whatever) offer to be the DD.

you all have fun out there, i'll be right here at work saturday and monday mumbling slightly unpleasent things about being trapped inside. :upsidedown:
Great thought Vincent!

I would like to add, many people will be with family also. I was very lucky that my family, well 75%, are in recovery, so when we get together there is not much of an issue. Family sometimes may not understand the situation that you are in. Remember, every person is an individual, because your brother, sister, mom, dad, uncle, aunt etc may not have a problem or notice that they do have a problem, you need to remember yourself. Dont worry about anyone but yourself, stay strong. This works both ways too. Sometime we feel that being sober is the greatest thing and we want to share "it" with everyone. Subtle talks and let it be work wonders.

Have a safe and happy weekend everyone.
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Be safe...so true!! I'll be working tomorrow and Sunday, and running karaoke at the local alano club saturday night....so I will be quite busy. Moght even work monay as well. If not, picnic at the alano, or with family...or both?
The Alano club in STL is the gay club. I dont know why that is.
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