Yep; I've trained pretty obsessively out of fear, and I'd be lying if I said I never considered killing every last one of those monsters who kidnap and torture little kids to death for little else than money. They're just about Evil Incarnate in my mind, and it's taken me many years to overcome my desires for vengeance. I was fortunate to have good family and good friends who pulled me back from the edge of the abyss in my darkest hour, and showed me the light; showed me that I don't have to avenge anyone to do what's right and save those kids, WITHOUT killing. ...I dunno where I'd be without them, and I am forever in their debt.